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Went for 4e6 de dinner gathering jux now.. At IMM instead of Jurong East.. Cant see wad was ahead properly cos my eye got infection and i cant wear my lens.. Very pain sia.. Peers that saw me jux now will be telling me to sleep early instead of using the computer.. Cos my eye was swollen till both are uneven.. Dun really wana go out lorx.. So ugly.. But.. Nvm lahz..

Chatting with him on msn now.. Maybe he wont even comes here ba.. Cos he wont be interested also.. Wad he sae to me yesterdae hurt me alot.. Cried again.. It does not helps my infection.. It only make it worse.. The wound he caused need time to heal.. I never know how long.. I hope it will be fast ba.. Cos i still have to see him often.. Hope i will not have to treat him like a stranger.. Let everything be like the past when he doesnt know about anything.. The fun and laughter when everyone is together.. Thanks for the concern you are giving me now..

That qn, everyone that ask me can get a real ans.. Except him.. To him, it will be a NO.. No matter wad, it is a NO.. Sorry.. Cos i think the reason he gave me was very true ba.. I will alwaes remember it.. No matter how much i wana tell him it is a YES, i will still force it to be a NO to be told to him.. I will be sad.. Hurt.. But it doesnt matter anymore.. Cos i havent recover..

Think i stop here le.. Wana go rest my eye.. Really very pain.. I hope to recover both internal and external ba.. Take care everyone..