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being very stressed recently with things around me.. i have fear.. fear in one very important thing.. some may know.. some may not.. you can see that i act very normal when i'm doing it.. but actually, deep down in me, i'm not ok.! the feeling in me is something that i dun think anyone can imagine nor feel.. it really sux.. the butterfly in the stomach.! the nervous.! the panic.! the fear.! the worries.! they are all there.. i really dunno wad to do..

if i am given a choice, i will not do that thing for the time being.. cos i really have fear in it.. sorry if i let anyone down.. but most importantly, i have let myself down.. sorry.! *sobx sobx*

being alone really sux.. i really dunno who i can confide to.. because no one ever understand it.. the feeling in me.! the stress.! most important.. FEAR.!

just wana be alone for tonight.. to cry out everything in me.. to try to get rid of every fear and wadeva that is disturbing my mood and feeling.. i'm so unbalance now..